Remember Me!!!

Remember me when I'm gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel them or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.

- Christina Georgina Rossetti

Found this in a book I was reading. I just sat with it for a while. It is amazing to chance upon such a beauty. So I share this to make y'all smile...

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand,
When everything's meant to be broken.........

What's the point if everything was meant to be broken....... I believed it could be different but again I've been proven wrong.

Every time I dare to dream...
A dream? Damn it was true
I lived what I cherished....but
It had to be broken... thats my cue

To act my part...to smile the goodbyes
Well so be it ....whats gone is gone
When will I finally let go of it?
The answer will soon, upon me, dawn.

This I hope, coz I stopped wishing,
This I ask, coz I never will dream,
To speak out, I must and will learn
But sometimes I'm unheard when I scream.

And yet sometimes there are things
Which even spoken aloud, are ignored.
Things which are better left alone
But things which have to be poured.

So good friend time has a way to handle
All things that go awry and bad.
Anger may need to be taken care of
All to save today, to be more glad.

Time.......... I'm waiting..........

Taste with eyes.... a term I read somewhere....
Eyes were meant to see and tongues were meant to taste....
But I suppose I'm wrong...coz everyone there
Seems to appreciate that it is .....called "taste"

Head is splitting while I try to figure out,
How could I be wrong for saying,
"A spade is a spade"- without a doubt,
Everytime I was right, my mind is saying.

Cause and effect - thats logical,
But a blast without any agitation?
Thats surprising-disorder without a radical
like cure without medication.

I talk in cryptics - thats the order of the day,
When what u say is twisted beyond recognition,
You wish you had that one friend if u may,
The one who wrote the screenplay and gave direction.

Climbing out but trampled on,
Cut me up in pieces,
Punish me for what I was made,
Make me hate this very breath,
This beauty of my life has been turned upside down,
By one mistake I made ages ago,
I was not wrong in being born,
Then why am I being punished for being me,
Wish to end this strife,
But seems like it will end with this life,
So whats my mistake?
Not conforming to someone else's picture of who I should be?
For being the me who could prove "him" and his ego wrong?
Climbing walls in an endless circle.....
Screaming out till my blood curdles.....
Punishing myself to lessen others pain.......
And still they wish to suck the life out of me.....
Guess what?...... they just succeeded!!!

Ok ... Think happy huh.....?

I'm confused....again i read a blog. Wow man....whats happening in life....senior batch at college....loads of work and tension mounting. Ever got the thought.... "Am I good enough?".... Its been haunting me for quite a long time now.

Am I good enough?, I wonder now
Wonder if I will ever be ready
Make it to the top, how how how?
This tottering pile isn't enough, steady
Nervous so much on the inside
Trying so hard to keep my face
Looking through closed eyes open wide
I'm trying to find that trace
I can't be the only one? Can I?
So worried I could be sick
Why cant I, this feeling, defy
Get out and do the trick.
Why not be the one you are?
Who am I?, I enquire about
The people who think they know me by far
If they knew me they'd stand in doubt.
Am I wrong? Or are they?
I dunno where I stand
Do I know me or do they?
Well I'll leave it to time and.....

I'm feeling....VAGUE
What is Vague?

Lets see....now thats vague....I'll write something else vague....Dunno when I wrote this but here it is...see its vague....
OK enough of vagueness



The sun sets slowly, is he reaching out?
Maybe its my mind playing its tricks again....
Does he not want to leave the skies?
Why do i see and feel so much pain.....
Why do the birds seem like they cant cry any louder?
This sinking feeling its getting too much...
Why cant i cry with the birds?
these walls block out my voice, their force is such....
I'm screaming inside....But who would ever know?
I'm nothing but a mute to the passer-by.....
All in Vain, my efforts are, it seems...
I'm scratching the walls, to get out, I try....
The sun sinks lower, Is he escaping?
So that he can save face, at a later hour....
Or helpless, is he, after all his efforts.....
And does not wish to tell me, so is moving far....
Somebody stop me, I'll come unhinged...
Someone stop this hammering in my head...
Check for vital signs, revive me....
As frustration, sucks out life, leaving me dead...
Is the end, Of the tunnel, the darkness?
Why is my pain draining away so fast...
This is just the beginning of the end....
And now my body and mind rest at last....

I'm still wondering when or why i wrote it.
The circumstances are....
wait for it....


VAGUE
Cheers to this vague post

Its been almost a Year ....Wow!!!!! one whole year.....But it dint seem that long....
Why?.......wish I knew
How?.....wish I could say.....


She lost her alcazar to this enemy called 'Friend'......
How was she to know that this was eventually, an enemy, to become
A cherished time, with this friend, she did spend.......
The memories have now been burnt, killing all but some
Why did my life flip 180 in a few days?
Turning confidantes into foes?
For now, the world did, it seems, arraign her
But not one of those 'friends', did behold her woes
She screamed her honesty, her probity.....
All fell on, but deaf ears.
Her own, she thought who were, did not reach out.....
Did attaint her, than wipe her tears.
And when she thought in her despair......
Never again, will another I trust
A rampart to her thought, she found......
Coercing it, think again you must
Turning away she looked into a fog, a never ending mist.....
With shadows of accusations, with echoes of censure
A closer look and she saw, some hands lifted to point.....

But a couple more to comfort and embrace her

Glad, she was, to be looked at not vehemently.....
But also, for once, heard and understood
She seeked a comfort in the gaze, a solace in that embrace......
Even so, to her new foes, be unwelcome, this would
Now still she is attainted and disgraced.....
But, with this support, is stronger to face
The winds, so cold and yet so searing.....
Blown by a 'Friend'...... the word only fetches a grimace
This support.....should I call them 'Friends'?
The word has lost its meaning, the trust and charm
Still....Why do they feel so dependable......
They I feel, but know not why, mean no harm.

As i sit down to write something new....i just think about friends...and how lost i would be without them.

Frankly i was....so lost in everything trivial and everything that was nothing.To think of it

She was living but in a fortress,
Never knowing she was under constant stress.
Trying to prove everyone,
The worth of what she had done.
Staying in her fortress, in her shell,
Sometimes she used to dwell.
'Are all my inmates loyal?
Or do they praise me, for i am royal?'
She fooled herself into believing,
Its not a duty they are relieving.
Thus she lived, for years to come,
Remembering some forgetting some.
And then one day,upon her, it dawned,
She was all alone in this fortress,with its piers and pond.
What good sun,what bright light,did bring upon her,
You wonder, a revealation, a truth, for years, she did not see.
And then like a huge rock it hit,
That she knew not,who the word 'friend',fit.
Her world just reeled to a stop,
Someone had apparated inside her fort with a 'pop'.
And as though a spell had been put,
Her fortress withered away in a second,from head to foot.
Like a cocoon burst open, The butterfly flew,
Seeing and showing,everything she could and knew.
But then she stopped to look, the intruder she had feared,
With trepidation and doubt, even to battle she geared.
Alas!Her defences failed against the beauty at the opposite end,
And she atlast lost her alcazar to this beauty called 'Friend'.

One day of my life...!!!

I woke up to the breeze, cool and light,
Never knew what surprises were in store for me on this day,bright.
I said "Good Morning!" to my reflection and saw a smile,
Didn't know i would be smiling harder in a while.
I started my day, hoping everything would be fine,
Man!! It turned out to be better than any imagination of mine.
I stole a gaze at the stars, as I rode along,
They seemed like a protection, like a phoenix song.
The hunter shined above, in the middle of the night,
While the waiting began to see that breath taking sight.
The mischief king put on his mask,
He rolled up his sleeves and took on the task.
The sky filled with the first rays of the Sun,
Oh! Chasing those waves back and forth was so much fun.
And then he rose slowly, changing from red to yellow,
Leaving everything he touched peaceful and mellow.
It was the perfect beginning to a day,
Where all things just fell in place and what else can I say.

A friend of mine made me read a poem which inspired me and made me think....
It was so true and in front of my eyes,yet it took me so long to realise that life was calling......and where was I?

This is what I would call 'Coming back to life....!'

My life was what I had made it, a mess,
For i could see nothing but the sorrow and stress.
Somewhere down the road, I had lost my way,
Somehow I forgot to appreciate the singing birds and the enjoy flowers sway.
Now everytime I think of it, gives me a jitter,
How strange it is, for the only taste of life i perceived was bitter.
A mistake, I seemed to be making,
Every night I wished to sleep forever, without waking.
Am I so bad, I always thought,
A feeling of guilt i always fought.
People around me seemed worried,
The more they coaxed, the farther, from truth I scurried.
But oneday I stopped and turned,
Only to realise, this exile was imposed and not earned.
Things became clear and shined in a new light,
My life had seen dawn after a long night.
I wondered, 'Bitter!!!?? Was that me?',
The one, who for some fun, wouldn't mind scraping a knee.
I realised I was being stupid and dumb,
I was so 'not me',so lifeless and numb.
In life, planning and expectations, there will be some,
But I decided 'lets stop being disappointed and take things as they come'.
I came back to life, oh yes I did,
My life stood beside me and waited patiently, as I made my bid.
Still somewhere in the dark are lurking the ghosts of my past,
But now they dont bother me, for my sunshine is here to last.